Love Story

December

2011-12-06T10:38:00.000+08:00

primary and secondary school students all of them go for holiday already, me leh? Final exam == yesterday is management, today accounting, next monday bridging maths 2, next tuesday reading and speaking english =,=

hahaha nvm, 13 i holiday already XD i want to take a rest then continue my part time work, otherwise i no budget already T.T

why????

2011-11-29T00:17:00.000+08:00

I get upset sometime, and not understand, make myself unclear and unsure. I straight to the point, when we talk about his ex, just ask some question (not jealous), just normal question like, "why you remove her from Facebook?" or "you still so hate her? so mind what she done to you?" sometime I just joke around which mean I didn't mind his past relationship, and his attitude and face expression start change, he will says "don't talk any more", or "I forgot already". Is it true he forgot? or he just don't want to mention it? why? let me feel like, he still very mind, and I will suspect he loves me? or he loves me because I quite similar with her... I am really down, very sad, I still don't dare to ask, just scare I make a wrong decision, am I correct? when I think about it every night, my tears will come out automatically without control. how come... sometime I can persuade and comfort people who around me, but I can't persuade and comfort myself as well, I am failure to cool myself down. 1 year almost 3 months, quite a lot our good and sweet memory, when I think about the problem, I feel that everything is fake, just a 1 year+ dream wake up. until now still a dream. anyway, I will prepare myself, and get myself ready to face every worst problem, nothing will hit me down

111111

2011-11-13T10:33:00.000+08:00

A beautiful number right? 11.11.11, most of the couple waiting this date to wedding, so envy lol probably i still young 18 years old, so i still cant XD my bf only 21, mana boleh LOL we start at 11.9.2010, at least 111111 is our cun 1 year 2nd month mah, we also got memory =p we planned go westwood de, mana tau there become bar ki, feel don't like that place, then go sekama see whether the coffee shop i like got open or not, wanna eat fried mee!!!!! *drool* but.. no open =-= upset >.< then we go Richmond makan liao XD eat lamp chop with my lovely darling <3 so happy.. most funny is... triple 11 we 2 had do nothing lol just eat, then... go kenyalang and spring shopping, too bored, then plan go Logos Hope "shopping" lol but.. soooooooooooooooo many people Q up superb very loooonnng in S Shape kok @.@ then.. go home liao =.= then end XD

Can't lost him =(

2011-10-12T12:18:00.001+08:00

tasty right? yeah, yesterday night I go The Spring KFC eat combo using munchy's coupon =p we go try new flavour tomyam chicken XD it is nice =D this is our enjoy moment lol besides that, only got another thing let me cry in the KFC T.T so malu kanasai >.< guess what, i not get touch or what, but is he told me something, i almost collapse =(

well, honestly, i realize i cant lost him =( he told me, yesterday he at school, a new welding student weld something using too much gas, and what happen, the gas is fire, the teacher there luckily fast "stop" the fire, or else when the gas explode, can't imagine what will happen, and my boyfriend at there. that time when i heard it i almost collapse, then i asked him, can run away, but, he answered me there so many gas, not in time to run. then i collapsed T.T after i heard it, i really cry out, at KFC!!! wth!! == my heart about to jump out, and can't imagine i will lost him just like this ='( afterall, i loss my appetite ==

anyway, i will die if i lost him *T.T*

love is the same?!?!

2011-10-09T00:22:00.000+08:00

I know your boyfriend care a lot of you so don't show off to me, because you never see when my boyfriend also care a lot of me in different way from you compare to mine is true heart better than yours just want to show he is care of you; I know your boyfriend got a nice body shape so don't show off to me, because he might sometime hard to find his size, and his face look drug addicted the most; I know your boyfriend is romantic type you also no need show off, my boyfriend not that type but I can know he is love me!

Is it necessary your partner have to show their love in front all of people? this is call true heart, they will never specially care of you or bring you go somewhere expensive and romantic place to eat, even though what we girls like of course is something like that, but don't you feel the way guy do like this maybe he can do for other girls? so easy touch by a guy, I tell you, he is not a good guy as you feel he can meet your every need.

I know my boyfriend wont care of me in front of people obviously, because sometime I realize he is ego than me == sometime I really get upset and upset and no idea with how come there is a big different of now the way he treats me compare to before we just started. I realized a thing, girls accept a guy because the only one time let you touch all the way, after that is another story already. I very envy of some couples still can very sweet after many years... I can't understand... many times I feel like give up everything and start again with myself without a partner, but.. I can't make up of my mind... 1 year... not as easy as you think to let off...

I am sorry if I offend anyone due to my bad temper when my mood is in 'system down' situation, sigh... I am no do it on purposely, I don't expect you to forgive me, but at least I apologize, is it your business whether you wan forgive me or not. I really don't know start from when I become another person, even me also can't recognize myself, is it caused by stressed? I ever think of give up my life, it is meaningless, schooling, working, doing something that it is meaningless, living is boring.

I know he use his own way to care of me, love me... but.. will you feel that I am sometime cold in my heart? you know when I am sad? what I interested in? you know my real of me? I am empty of my inner, could you feel it? when I am happy do you happy? why I feel like we got a gap between us? seriously, these keep my mind half year already. I would like to listen if you unhappy about me, I prefer hurt for awhile than you just keep it in side until the max and shoot straight forward to me, my heart will cold, do you know that? If you got problem, or got something about me, don't keep it inside of you, just speak up, I beg you, please... I prefer my tears drop 1 day, I also don't want drop everyday in my next path. you have to show me, my decision and my choice won't wrong... can you do that for me?

I know some of the guys when they not love their girlfriend any more, they prefer just keep silent and show they no feeling to you any more then let the girl leave them automatically, so you no need pay any responsible right? they don't want to hurt the girl, so they prefer to do like that. I will not let thing happen on me, listen, and watch carefully, if one day you no feeling to me any more, can you please tell me clearly? thank you... so that I wont become a world stupid, stick to a guy that actually doesn't love me any more, it is stupid! you still love me, am I right? Tell me if I wrong, I will grateful...

Dear I am sorry if I make you feel like I not believe you, not i don't believe you, is the way you do everything is much different from half year ago, and you said "no leh, still same", the moment I feel sweet and I feel upset is same thing? I am not 'feeling slow motion' that can't feel anything. Anyway, what I want to say is, my feeling begin empty, slowly can't feel you, feel like your heart is far away from me =(

believe me, I still love you

What da hell!!! FUCK u!

2011-09-28T20:50:00.000+08:00

Guess what? i fail to apply Yayasan, but I pass in PTPTN. I apply Yayasan at April, even though Sem 1 result is very good, but still, no result until now == what he fuck!! I apply PTPTN few days ago nia, now already "diluluskan", isit dulan??? fuck yayasan! only for bumiputeras! chinese u see like shit! go to hell u PIC of yayasan!!!! i wait and wait, wait and wait like a stupid, i know early i wont apply that stupid loan fucking let chinese so hard! what the hell!!

1 year anniversary

2011-09-28T20:37:00.000+08:00

11/9/2011 is me and my dear's 1st year anniversary, our 1st relationship that can go 1 year, before we met with each other, all just short relationship which let me feel it is like nothing happen and i dunno who are with me before. Alright, 1st year anniversary plan go somewhere celebrate with my dear, but end up we gather with his friend at bintawa kueh chap == and the most soi thing is... my "air asia" landing == which make me hard to go around! hell!! 1st year anniversary nothing lah, just like this, simple. Sometime, i saw a lot couple 3 years plus already still very sweet, but look at our own.. sigh, why totally different == he is spontaneous type XD im quite shy also sometime lol so.. just like that lahhhhh =D

my favourite Korea singer team-SS501

2011-08-28T01:49:00.000+08:00

new "owner" SS501

2011-08-28T01:30:00.000+08:00

New owner? lol well, actually is, few weeks ago I watch a best Korea drama "Playful Kiss", which act by beginning I not really like him Kim Hyun Joong, SS501 leader, absolutely, I felt he is a bit type of girly lol and another cute girl Jung So Min. After I watch this drama, what I thought changed @.@ I start to like him, even crazy for him, sigh, I find his album, go youtube watch his every nice mv, "break down", "please", "kiss kiss", countdown comeback stage "let me go" and so forth... Am I crazy? here I say, Absolutely! I even go youtube watch a tv show that Kyung Lim presided over the "SS501 thank you for waking me up", Kyung Lim(she)'s job is wake all the SS501 members LOL due to their schedule, they have to late back to their dormitory and move around here and there about 5am sleep, 7am have to wake XD leader Kim Hyun Joong, my favourite is the hardest to wake, so funny XD my 2nd favourite, Park Jung Min, he also a endao kia, too bad his nickname is "horse" lol people wake him up he will kick around scratch people hair grab everything he can, so scary @,@ 3rd I like is Kim Kyu Jong, he is the most sensitive guy, always the earliest and first one wake among the members XD 4th is cutest Kim Hyung Jun, he always bullied by Park Jung Min lol but they like to stick with each other is the truth lol last is Heo Young Saeng, I no much word to talk about him lol

just give one of the link

Kim Hyun Joong "let me go" countdown comeback stage

2011-08-28T01:12:00.005+08:00

what my feeling is... "ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! IMMA GONNA CRAZY!!!" <3 LOL

Playul Kiss KO version

2011-08-20T00:22:00.000+08:00

Love it, playful kiss, korean version which main character is Kim Hyun Joong(Baek Seung Jo) & Jung So Min(Oh Ha Ni). began i not really like Kim Hyun Joong coz i feel he so girly XD but after watch this drama, i start to like him crazy == he is such handsome and cool in this drama exactly!
Oh Ha Ni fell in a genius Seung Jo 4 years, although began always fail, but at the end Seung Jo start to understand his feeling, without Ha Ni, he feel empty, and decide to face and not to hide it.. that is their love story end up with their marvellous wedding; in special edition, Seung Jo's bad character changed coz of his cute wife Ha Ni. Seung Jo become a doctor and his wife Ha Ni is a nurse; they love each other..

his wife be a nurse so her husband become her "white tikus" XD

last ep XD

A touch Korea drama I could not forget

2011-07-18T20:01:00.000+08:00

Recently I watch Korea drama, a drama initially I though it was a boring drama, but I still try to watch it isit really boring? I feel the story really meaningful, i like it... it is "Princess Hours", which in chinese is "我的野蛮王妃-宫"

main character Joo Ji Hoon(Shin) and Yoon Eun Hye(Chae Kyung), the guy for me consider handsome bah, he very cool lol in this drama, he is a Korea Prince, because of his dad(King) not really good in healthy, so King's mother plan to let prince get married with King's father good friend's granddaughter, Shin actually got his own secret girlfriend(hyo rin), but she reject his propose with a reason want to fulfil her ballet dancer's dream, so Shin married the girl(Chae Kyong). at first, many parts are very funny.

something starting to happen after another prince come back from England, lee yul. he actually is a future king, but his dad(1st king) death in accident, so his brother become a king, shin's father. Yul's mother want he "steal" back the things which belongs to him-future king. Yul fall to Chae Kyung, Prince Shin's wife, a princess, and this is the sad scene start

anyway, after chae kyung leave the palace go Macao around 1 year with 1 of her staff bah? 尚宫 lah lol then Shin go macao with his grandma go find chae kyung, he officially propose to her without a "Prince", he give up be a king, he let his sister be, he just want a freedom life with his loves one, chae kyung.

--> a touch drama that let me drop a lot of my tears lah anyway, lol, when the sad part is really very sad, even can cry whole episod, touch the most when Shin tell Chae Kyung the truth about his feeling, and Chae Kyung also tell him the truth, this take back their true love, a prince and princess love story; by the way, that time suppose to prepare for princess leave the palace and prince have to go with police because of another prince's mother plan everything bad on him and everybody though he is wrong, a sad leaving between the 2 person

Prince Shin and Princess Chae Kyung

Chae Kyung, Shin, Hyo Rin, Yul

Hyo rin, Shin and Chae Kyung, Yul

happy momment

Princess Chae Kyung

happy and sad moment

their 2nd time wedding with love under blessing of grandma and palace girl

when she want divorce when interview

sad moment

he start fall to her

not easy to good again

just like normal couple

hyo rin, shin ex

shin's family

shin and her eldest sister, after all is korea queen

Shin, shin's eldest sister, Yul

here their love story began

new family photo

family cast

thank u dad!! =D

2011-07-10T20:30:00.001+08:00

you know uh.. my dad blessed me a laptop(notebook), but i have to pay it back one day XD anyway, i am happy at least no need feel bothering when start school haha

Permai

2011-06-16T19:59:00.001+08:00

on 15th June, yesterday, i go Permai with my dear Calvyn, and his friends Kh, El, Lester, Anderson, Hiro... 1st i thought 7.30am will start our journey, so i wake early early in the morning, around 6.30am, so sleepy.. but, who know, el not yet done prepare, lol, so we go near his house de coffee shop waiting his call.. guess what? 9am like that we just go == hahaha on the road, want sleep but don't feel want, but really want sleep when we arrive lol

university/college students need pay RM4, need show student ID == when we go to the beach, my dear said want bring me play kayat XD so he paid RM25 for kayat double lol i have fun at there XD before that never play this kind of stuff, and when i sit up i got a bit scare scare @.@

after all, i become black T.T yesterday skip 2 classes OwO

my happiest year-18 birthday

2011-06-16T19:34:00.000+08:00

1st of all, 18 birthday is my happiest year and meaningful to me, coz i have this chance to celebrate with my darling and also my family... after my class around 5pm, my dear bring me go Westwood, and my dad, mom, bro already there =D and a surprise that u will not guess it, my dad who having ego problem go pay money lol around RM70 XD im happy coz i can celebrate my birthday with all my love one.. my dear, at the same time with my family also.. =) btw, i received near 400 birthday blesses from facebook, 10% of my facebook friends XD and more than 20 msg blesses.. thank u all my beloved bro sis and friends =p

this is what i ordered for my dad n mom, choc-o-cino, nice

my lamb chop XD

lol my dad n mum =D

my bro =)

my darling n my bro XD

my darling de chicken chop o.o

OwO

2011-05-18T11:29:00.002+08:00

I am happy~ super happy~ XD don't tell u why I am happy LOL anyway, I am happy =p

love my dear =D

2011-05-16T15:16:00.004+08:00

last night i totally cant sleep because... my dear gonna leave me 6.15am =( i sleep and wake and sleep and wake =.= 4.30am i wake up, go see my hp, there is no any new message there, means my dear still sleep, actually, i am waiting my dear come my house send me something and wanna see his real face, last time, and wanna touch touch him, last time, because i cant sure when i can see him and touch him next time, will need a very long time =( finally, i fall asleep, i wake again by 6am something, saw his message said he is late, cant send me something, he asked his dad send to me, that's mean i no chance to see him and touch touch him already, i quickly sent a message to him, see whether he will reply or not because he is on the plane already at that time, i try called him, engaged... i.. upset.. i don't know i drop how many tears last night, couldn't sleep, i can feel my pillow all fill with my tears drop, it's damp. i wish my mum wont ask me anything about my feeling, because it will make me cry again, i know it doesn't make sense, but.. i am sad.. who know my feeling? i fall asleep again because eyes tired, until 8am something, he 8am+ reach there, then start to busy to run his own thing.. then i go my school, go class, it's first time i 'cant understand' what my lecturers are saying, my soul is lost...

before that, my dear asked me go airport with him early in the morning, i rejected, not because i am lazy feel too early wan sleep, but i no courageous to go, i still cant facing he leave me, if i go with him, my eyes see him go in like that, then myself back home, how many people can understand my feeling? anybody? i hate this feeling =( because it show that, i am actually weak..

my dear said, he go there to study, he wanna hardworking then bring success come back, for our future better, so that i can have a better life at least wont like my current life.. i know.. but.. distance relationship.. make me broken =( i know my dear loves me so much, so he starting planning our future, i am touch what he had said and what he has try to doing, make me love him more... and reluctant..

dear, i swear to u now, although i will sad, will cry, but i not mean that don't wan u go, but i am reluctant.. from now on, i will hardworking also, try to do my best in my study, exam, i will take care of myself don't let u worry =( we 2 doing harder and harder for better result in our future =D dear, we go eat Zinger when u come back XD our promise ah =D i love u..

ps: i just letting my tears drop down when i am blogging, i don't care all of the people staring at me, yeah, i at Swinburne computer lab blogging, that's why and why all people staring at me using weird feeling like face cramp =.= i don't care, i am sad, cant meh? i might be will update my blog everyday =D

I miss you...

2011-05-08T18:21:00.001+08:00

Im listening "I miss you" by Avril Lavigne, bacause im true missing someone who not beside me now =( he go Shah Alam next Sunday, I get shock its too fast, I cant accept at that time.. but i ever promise i will not "tie" him again, so I just pretend happy let he go.. just because wan he can go there with no worries, happy... actually my heart is bleeding =( i dun wan let he know, i dare to blog, since he seldom and long time didn't touch his blog...

I very reluctant, of course i will sad, if i dun sad, mean i not love u loh.. i try to control my tears every time when with him.. 7/5/2011, he brought me and his family go Pizza Hut celebrate Mother's day... i no mood de actually.. jus.. i pretend.. i cant smile.. my heart is crying..

since he want go shah alam is his own decision, i oso happy for him, and wish him good luck.. >.< im trying to happy for him, i will happy for his choice if that is his real interest.. thats mean i have to be patient next coming years.. i will wait he come back and bring bek his success.. i will waiting him come bek to marry me o.O XD

Inconsolable

2011-05-08T17:27:00.002+08:00

I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Felt like a scene on the cutting room floor
when i let you walk away tonight
Without a word

I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling, ohh
If you were here right now, I swear,
I'd tell you this

Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all i ever wanted, it comes right down to you (to you)
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls
I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no.
I memorized the number
So why can't i make the call
Maybe 'cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility (ohh)

Baby I don't want to waste another day, another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all I ever wanted, it comes right down to you (to you)
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable (oh no no)

I don't wanna be like this
I just wanna let you know
That everything that i hold in
'Cause everything that i can't let go (can't let go, yeah)

'Cause baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all I ever wanted, it comes right down to you (to you)
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable oh no

Don't you know it baby
I don't want to waste another day

I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

im hurt...

2011-05-02T10:02:00.001+08:00

this early of the morning around 1215, i been hurt.. i don't wanna say what happen, anyway, im HURT!! I hate this life.. I dunno when he become so small gas, I even can say i dunno who are him right now!! I don't like that.. I accept him about half years ago because his action let me touch, i feel he is kind, generous, i dunno whether that is only make for me to see only or not.. Last night at Life Cafe, i told him i use his account accept people only, then he go home wanna deactivate his account, u know im hurt jus because ur this action??!?! make me feel is my fault, my fault!!!! ok, really is my fault.. i wont touch ur account(2nd) anymore except barworld.. fine, 1st account u dun wan, then i jus 'pick it up'..

i dunno I still can tahan him like this until when.. my patient is limited! i can hate 1 people 1 year even whole life.. i can take up easily, meanwhile i can put down let go easily.. what u think what u wan jus tell me, i wont force u, dun jus keep diam diam, my heart is dead after all

New Life

2011-04-19T14:52:00.002+08:00

New life? yeah.. Currently I having University life.. I had start my University life since April after my SPM result was taken.. Well, I am doing Diploma in Business major accounting in Swinburne, stressful, and I met new friends, cute friends XD they are helpful to me, Mandy, Stella, Deck Churng, ofcoz, I met come from international friends also, but I cannot remember their name as well, because its too weird for me and hard to memorize their name, feel sorry XD Korean, Vietnamese, China, Afrika.. I like my current life, I hope I can do well in my study... A difference between University and secondary XD no need wear school uniform, no need hide hand phone, can sleep in class teacher wont care you but I wont do that LOL got computer lab, but the line is suck I no idea with it.. btw, ahhhhhh!!! assignment! headache! I start to understand why ppl keep complaining and scratch their head around because assignment! assignment due date = presentation time, sigh, going to die soon, im dead lol with my friends, I can improve my English language, 1st day I wont talk, because fear of speak in wrong way XD nah, IT homework make me headache lah..

Btw, Im having a boyfriend that almost 8 months who love me care me so much, and I love him so much XD although he working now, but my feeling still the same, never cut down.. instead of growing and growing @.@ my dear always support me, I know he want help me, but no afford to do so, so just keep silent, I understand, that's why Im touch.. the way he loves me cares for me, all are freshly in my mind always. I can even recall all the good memory and also bad memory =p Im still 'sigh' about he no study with me which my dream >.<

i now at computer lab blogging, time almost up, is time go to class, c u soon =)

what to do?

2011-02-22T12:17:00.000+08:00

He go Singapore interview SIA, coz fail so wan try another Tiger Airway, Singapore also... I really cant tahan he work so far, hard to contact him also =( i think hard and cry whole night, I wan give up or not? I ever think want end up this relationship, almost half year le, feeling is really strong, cant wan end then end, so pain.. so many friends giving me advice, dont do stupid thing, must think carefully make sure I wont regret! Yes! I sure will regret if I do such decision! If he work at there, I will bankrupt one day, coz I have to keep reload, I seldom online, no different as i still single...

He said me, dont like small kid, if love him, so must let him go earn money. what can i do? sad then cry is normal, i never control u, leg is urs, where u wan go how i can control u? sigh.. is ur choice..

from now, I wont cry for anyone anymore! smile also will disappear from my heart, i will smile, but my heart will never smile......

Valentine's day =)

2011-02-15T00:55:00.002+08:00

Today 14/2/2011, yeah, Valentine's Day you know it... =) Actually, Valentine's Day is not for lovers, but I with my darling almost whole day XD 12nn we go a movie 'homecoming' that we thought already late at least 5mins but who know reach there not yet start kok XD thats mean we didn't miss it hahahaha.. then U go back his house rest, night we go The Spring Startbucks enjoy our Valentine's Day which is not for lovers LOL we order 2 large cups of ice water @.@ mine is chocolate cream chip(yummy), he order green tea with vanilla cream, so nice.. and cake, beef pie XD so nice, I cant forget all of this.. honestly, this is my 3rd boyfriend, he is the one I most love, most sayang, most help, most like =) with both 1st ex and 2nd ex, we never celebrate Valentine's Day, because 1st ex not yet reach that day then we break XD 2nd ex leh? erm.. don't say lah hahaha, just because we are not 'open' relationship how celebrate? lol so my current bf is my 1st bf that celebrate Valentine's Day with me =)

When we done 'settle' all those foods and drinks, we go Lester and Sue there, he asked me close my eyes @.@ i thought what he want do, shock me lol Im touch, because he put the ring on my finger, dunno when he go buy de, not cheap also >.< I very touch, that time I almost cry le, my tears come out abit liao, but.. so many people looking @.@

Darling,

2day I so happy u know? U gave me a surprise =) I can don't want anything, I just want your heart o.o I just want u can pei me hehe.. that ring, I very like, thank u my laogong.. <3 *touch* *sobzz* hehehe can I treat it as u already 'book' me? XD and hoh, I not stingy help u pay anything because I love u(if i got money), don't blame urself no afford pay oohh >.< i try my best to help u.. because u also try ur best to help me.. i.. just now i really speechless TwT..

Dear Calvyn Law Tze Yuen, I love u... muacckkxx!!! I stop it here yah,

love yah ikhui.

night time at Spring Starbucks XD

im naughty gal, I take his photo when my dear try to takes my photo o.o

ring's beautiful box

inside de rings also sui chin XD

our rings <3

Happy CNY!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-02-05T20:08:00.000+08:00

from the 1st day of cny until 3rd day, i omost whole day din at home with my hubby XD go his aunty house, his grandma house lol i been funny around by his uncle @.@ fine lah, they all are just so frenly and funny XD 1st time i met his all family member @.@ sp scary lol but now ok le gua??? 5th day start work le... why~~ so fast~~ T.T this year really din feel any cny's atmosphere.. totallyy!!!!! well, i dunno wat to write next, i stop here maybe? see ya...

梁静茹可惜不是你

2011-02-01T00:52:00.000+08:00

cry cry cry!!!!

2011-01-07T00:32:00.002+08:00

every night time is the time I cry... these few days, i sleep late on purposely just hope i can make myself tired then go sleep le, so that i wont think too much, then tears drop down, then next day bring a pair of swolen eyes go work.. >.< why i cry? i dun think anyone of u know... well, i just keep it as my own secret, dun tell u anyone hehe.. actually... i am far away from church from god le, since i SPM, then work.. and also din feel anything to church sisters brothers le, i cant commitment to church already.. let me think that i dun wan go back, very shy, like i am still new... anyway, my topic not this...

now... i always hope that I and my darling can walk together until the end of our life, will us? i know the future is unpredictable.. but i will try my best to protect this relationship.. I love him.. cant lost him in my life T.T beginning, he is the only 1 i most hate and sick of, but now, he is the only 1 i most love most sayang most cant lost most important... i hope i wont cry le 2nite... why i cry.. guess slowly bah.. wont tell u.. hehe.. gudnitez..

found out some nice chinese songs when I work...

2011-01-04T00:00:00.001+08:00

礼物-刘力扬

说了再见-周杰伦

背对背拥抱-林俊杰

你不知道的-王力宏

new year... but...

2011-01-03T23:46:00.001+08:00

2011, new year, don't you feel time passes by faster and faster? now I'm about step out the beginning of the social already, is really fast.. sadly, my friends all will leave me soon.. ='(

of course, new year, and I having a part-time job now, at Spring, sometime if many customer, I wont feel bored, but like today, is totally so less customer, so borrrrrrrrred... coz my darling also start work le T.T he getting a suffer work, lunch time already so tired, after lunch have to work again, the procedure not easy also... I am... hurt.. when my darling tired.. but.. I cant help anything, I.... feel bad.. ='( so sad.. he today sleep early, i want he after work direct sleep until 2ml de.. but he 'stubborn' de want pei me.. i am touch.. almost cry out in front of my supervisor.. they ask, why ur nose red red de? I din ans them, just say can i go toilet for a while? yeah, i go toilet... cry.. about 15 minits.. i am..

we almost 4 months.. we both step in busy way.. i cant message with him until 5pm... i always want control myself, dun cry easily!!!!!! but.. my tears not listen to me.. why... now blogging also cry.. haiz.. i really cant live without him.. TELL ME!!!! HOW CAN I CONTROL MY TEARS?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!!? my colleagues thought we quarrel >.< no~~~ we still good good de... he Feb start school le.. maybe i will either March or August intake.. any comments?

he yesterday go serikin.. he got buy thing for me, although not what expensive as u ppl think, but... Im surprise!!! key chain, a pair of blue dolphin with my name and his name.. i get his name, and he get my name.. im touch.. so happy... last night we at park walk walk, sit down and talk.. im happy at the moment.. don't feel wanna leave.. T.T i miss this feeling.. love this feeling..

ok... my blog stop here..
just wan say.. Calvyn Law, I Love U forever... <3

EmO...

2010-12-23T23:55:00.003+08:00

Since i working start from 20/12, im busy and no time update my blog, fb even go a toilet!! jkjk.. well, is really busy, when customer come, i must faster go steal the customer, because how much customer pay, about 1% commission i get, so im trying work harder to get as much as i can!!

because so tired, so i starting very emo, emotional.. i start very easy angry, sad, feel hurt, even cry.. yesterday cry because miss my laogong T.T today cry because of... him and my colleagues .. he ofcoz feel nothing, but his 1 of the message make me cry T.T about my colleagues, 2day i made rm800+ sales, a lazy girl beh song my sales so high, so gossip me, is herself lazy always sit at counter there play hp still say me, f*ck!!

just, my tears almost come out when i still working >.< then im crying inside his car when he said out those words T.T why~~ i can't control myself already.. fall deeper and deeper, deeper and deeper.. can't go back le.. ='(

anyway, i love him so much, so i get hurt easily.. sigh..
2ml xmas countdown at The Spring after i work untill 11.30 at Spring @.@ we 2gether.. ^^ <3

Stay Crunchy-Ronald Jenkees

2010-12-06T20:53:00.004+08:00

I found a nice song in fb bar world, so i search in utube.. love it.. light rock like tat de ^^

No Matter hOw...

2010-12-06T19:34:00.004+08:00

I stuck beginning just dunno what to write how to express what i am thinking... Well, i directly just write my story within this almost 3 months hehe

5 more days, our 3 months anniversary coming, we are happily live everyday =) guess what, he ever made me cry ='( but he dunno i cry xD I am happy in this relationship, feel relax, at least wont feel im alone when i met some bad things, yeah, bad things among my family, my future school, family economic, quarel in family, been misunderstand blah blah blah... he always by my side, i am touch while he said : " How can i give up? Im now thinking on how to support u, i will save money for next time u study..." that times my tears keep droping out ceaselessly >.< im touch easily... but actually i still phobia on how people think of me especially said i am lie people's money!! sick of it, very 38!

I very touch he said like that, because i thought most of guys scared of partner's family having economic problem, then will pretend leave like that... however, i am wrong, i should understand him, he is not that kind of person sigh.. how can i do, i only can wait until i finish my study or go part time work then pay back to him? maybe.. we are dunno each other de, just through many many many many happens, if that time i din get hp number from him(just because is fren's bf), now we are totally like anonymous o.o

We are very love each other, deeply, he is my hubby hehe =p although many times he ever made me cry T.T but he is not on purposely want make me cry, at least we are not because of quarrel then i cry, so... not bad hahaha XD usually is because i very mind what he said very mind what he is thinking and doing o.o if he din reply my message, i will think much much easily >.< Im sorry my dear(darling) hehe... he got bad attitude, when stress he will hurt diok me carelessly T.T hehe but i still happy we are not because of quarrel then i cry de..

he said i very sayang him, is true, i very sayang him, very love him.. but i never think diok he will touch of what i am done like take food for him o.o i feel the happiness ^^

Darling,
Actually I also touch on what u had done to me, u also sayang me, cares me, but the way u act not so obvious enough XD enough lah, for me, at least u are true heart, i know u love me =) but my love more than urs o.o im touch when u help me open car door, im touch when that day at Ipoh Town.. rainy dat, still remember? u don't want i diok rain, but u just like that go to car, i also don't want u diok rain u know? i very simtia T.T im touch when u always ask me 'eat already?' because this show u care me, sayang me.. even if i not so hungry, u also want me eat >.< u willing to waste this money on me sobz sobz.. I know u tired, don't wont u get sick, so want u sleep early o.o my exam weeks is u fetch me bek, bring me lunch, thank u >.< dar u know? Saturday at Swinburne library i see u very tired just use ur arm sleep like that on the table, i also very simtia, that day i so hope i can cover u a blanket don't want u get cold, want give u a hug at least can reduce the cold, but i cant do anything >.< so i take this photo, feel my dar actually very cute, very lengcai xD although sometime ur attitude like cold cold de >.< hard to understand what u are thinking right now, just sometimes hehe. No Matter hOw, nothing can tear us apart, nothing can get u away from me =p
Calvyn Law Tze Yuen, I LOVE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUACKKKXXXXXSSSSSS
Love you, ikhui <3

hmm.. maybe i stop at here? i will update again if i free.. just dunno next time is when oredy.. =)

arggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-12-02T16:26:00.002+08:00

   DECEMBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I baru realize time is running de o.o so fast!!!! >.< even a pro runner also will lost LOL! yeah, spm is 'on da way', from 2day, just still have 3 more subjects to move on.. sigh actually during spm, i din do revision well, sigh, my result sure very f**king kns! sua loh.. haiz

   Christmas almost reach also, i suddenly feel lazy to decorate my living room with the christmas tree ki >.< time fast, i almost go forward 18 years old, a new year, prepare to accept more new challenge.. University lah, new friends lah, study area lah, my study level lah, blah blah blah lah.. sien arrrr.. suddenly feel secondary school more enjoyable o.o coz no need feel bother of this and that, no money pay lah, so expensive lah kacao kacao
= =///

   hahaha 9 more days, me and my hubby's 3 months anniversary =p every new months, i will do an evaluation, this month is i made him not happy or wat like that, so that i can try my best to change myself for him and for me ofcoz =p but luckily so far still dun hav occur any dispute =) coz usually we can accept each other's idea, we never wan control each other, i love this relationship, because love him, so i try my best to protect this relationship, although we dunno our future will be how... hahaha anyway, just let it XD

SPM

2010-11-24T21:06:00.003+08:00

SPM SPM SPM SPM SPM!!!!!!!!!!! 2day is SPM 2nd day, but i m stuck inside swinburne computer lab with my hubby XD another super cold for 2day, wearing jacket and shivering LOL

2ml sejarah but never do revision, =s straight As far from my mind... T.T sigh.... haha, 8 more days, i can relax =p i will go a 'honeymoon' with my hubby YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so happy when i tink it.. LOL not plan yet >.<
hmm... computer spoil because of my bro wrong click something then system 32 been deleted sigh.. cant use ki.. wat to do? duh... ppl said boring day but i cant boring, still got 14 days i live with books ough!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha anyway, i can throw away my bm and bi reference books o.o since my bro might go SM Teknik at batu lintang

erm, my hubby? now actually busying his assignment, then prepare for his final exam... now, i look like very funny because jus sitting his side and staring at him xD he sooo concentrate his revision and sooo focus on the computer screen O.o he is my hubby, my love, yeah... i found him XP within this 2 month almost 3 months, we never got different of idea then quarrel lah blah blah blah... as i said, so far never heard his 2nd word in front of me.. let me very respect him >.< i love him soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much =p he too maybe? o.o haha i know he too lOl

ok, i stop at here, update again, but may take a long time =p

I love u...

2010-10-15T22:49:00.005+08:00

I write this blog from my true heart honestly. These few weeks, we have been together, I didn't go to school, I go Swinburne library with my darling of course. I realize one great thing that I never do that in my stupid secondary life--love my partner with all of my heart, but now... now, I was break my record, I love him with all of my heart, I realize the feeling to him is growing stronger and stronger, I even can't lost him, just few minutes I didn't see him, I starting miss him already, is that strong in feeling? Uncontrollable!

Now, his one of action, his one of the word, my tears are get out easily. before, I am not that weak just because I never trust a man, I never love them with my full of love, but now I am done it, he is the real key, he brings me out from my darkness to brightness, he is holding my hand without complain without blame without anger... He giving me the happiness in my life, I am gonna enjoy it, thats why I trust him, and love him

I am touch, he is trying his best to make me happy, as I said, he never said 2nd word after mine, I am guilty, I feel bad. The way he loves me, different with others, I love the way he loves me... others never ask me what kind of love I want, just do their own, am I happy? although he didn't asks me what kind of love I want, but I know, he is a best observer, he understand me, he also try his best providing me the best!

yeah, we are going a relationship been 1 month, this 1 month, a surprise, we never quarrel, feel like time very fast, 1 month I still not realize yet untill I recall it. We hoping that we can protect this relationship until forever. He is kind to me, he tolerate with me; I also starting to tolerate with him, try my best to giving him the best, I don't want to be stubborn again T.T

I miss u...
I love u...

100 truths about me

2010-09-28T18:50:00.003+08:00

I get this from Mandy in fb
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.
(To do this, go to "notes" under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: ice ribena
2. Last phone call: my dar
3. Last text message: my dar
4. Last song you listened to: Lupin (Korea)
5. Last time you cried: cry badly n sadly? form 1 bah?
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: im not crazy in love lol
7. Been cheated on: who dare
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: yes
9. Lost someone special: no, after i realize it was wrong
10. Been depressed: ofcoz
11. Been drunk and threw up: Im not bad drinker =p
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. ocean/sky blue
13. black
14. purple
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: ofcoz lah
16. Falling in love: yayaya ^^ my dar lah~ xD
17. Laughed until you cried: funny movie xD
18. Met someone who changed yoou :yep. oso my dar
19. Found out who your true friends were: i found out long time loh
20. Found out someone was talking about you: talk gud *speechless* ; talk bad(gossip) *slap
      lah*
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: fren's?! om....
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: bestz frens' list i can know
      all almost
23. How many kids do you want to have: i only 17 yrs ==
24. Do you have any pets: my small cute cat =)
25. Do you want to change your name: eat full nthg to do ah? my time only got 24 hrs per day
      ==
26. What did you do for your last birthday?: go a movie wif my dar n frens
27. What time did you wake up today: 5.30am @.@
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: dreaming
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: i free after spm =p
30. Last time you saw your Father: now in front tv nia lol
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: be a strong woman?
32. What are you listening to right now: like a G6
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: thomas gt, tom no
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: -my ex bf can count?
35. Most visited webpage: facebook lah, otherwise where i do this 100 truths blah3? ==
36. What's your real name: Candice Chin Ik Hui
37. Nicknames: Cha bo-->for bestz frens; fierce tigress-->for feel life is bother
38. Relationship Status: In a sweety relationship =)
39. Zodiac sign: gemini
40. Male or female : u guess? female lah
41. Primary school: SJK Chung Hua No 5
43. High school/college?: Kuching Town
44. Hair colour: dark brown
45. Long or short: hair? long; if say physical body, short ==
46. Height: 154cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: in a relationship le still crush? lol
48: What do you like about yourself?: wise brain =p / quick-witted
49. Piercings: yer
50. Tattoos: no
51. Righty or lefty: righty
52. Innie or Outie: apa itu?
FIRSTS :
53. First surgery: appendix operation while primary 3
54. First piercing: 3 yrs old
55. First best friend: 1st best fren now not already count?
56. First sport you joined: race
57. First vacation: to Saratok of 6 hours journey when primary 4 @.@
58. First pair of trainers: who go notice it? xD
NOW
59. Eating: nothing
60. Drinking: sky juice
61. I'm about to: play sdo ==
62. Listening: jus now Like a G6, now The Catalyst ==
63. Waiting: this 100 lame questions faster finish duh~
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: prohibited topic for underage =p
65. Get Married?: no husband married to who? lol
66. Career?: accounting
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes can c, lips for? eyes o.o
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs bah?
69. Shorter or taller: ofcoz taller lah
70. Older or Younger: older than me btw 3-4 yrs ONLY
71. Romantic or spontaneous: if not romantic relationship is meaningless; if not spontaneous
      otherwise me come meh? @.@ im gal lol
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice stomach for dun gastric bt cant c, nice arms =p
73. Sensitive or loud: super loud lol
74. Hook-up or relationship: i dun like hook-up, relationship lah
75. Trouble-maker or hesitant: trouble maker hahaha
HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger: yucccksss!! im not a perverted
77. Drank hard liquor: yeah, form 1 =p
78. Lost glasses/contacts: 2 pairs new contact lenses!! @#$%*!!!
79. Sex on first date: Amen haleluia...
80. Broken someone's heart: yeah.. chasers, not only 1 xP

82. Been arrested: i so guai de xD
83. Turned someone down: for who i sick of, yeah
84. Cried when someone died: who will cry when the person u hate is die? lol erm.. tears of joy
       count? xD
85. Fallen for a friend?: ee, no o.o but now my bf count? he is not in my fren list before boh =p
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: ofcoz!! otherwise go hang up urself =p
87. Miracles: erm.. miracles of God? yes!

89. Heaven: u try do sinful things loh lol a Christian dun believe heaven then better go re-read
       bible, re-baptism lol
90. Santa Claus: fake 1? yes xD
91. Kiss on the first date: develop too fast le bah?! 1st year xD
92. Angels: yer
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: say le im nt perverted! ==
95. Did you sing today? : wat about assembly's negaraku? LOL
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: depends on how they feel bah?
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 18 yrs old ago xD
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: go bek my original
       place before i borned xD
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: ofcoz! but now my bf giving me courageous how? lol
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: duh~ otherwise posting this as 100 fakes? *yawn*

i realized no 100 leh? lol

In a relationship? =)

2010-09-19T15:09:00.011+08:00

How gonna start my blog? erm, well... i in relationship, yeah, a different relationship with my 2 ex before. 1st ex let me phobia, 2nd ex let me sien n hate, i love them with my limited.. now? my dar is success to break my limited ^^ coz the power of love? so make me more love him =) as long as he wont hurt me.. he keep giving me his promise wont hurt me, although i told myself :'dun too believe what guy(s) have say, because might hurt u in the end', that is what i'd told myself after 2nd break. i know my dar is try to protect me and wont hurt me, i very touch de actually... maybe i can try believe him? thats why i said he successfully break all of my barrier, im happy with that he helps me walk out the darkness and world of hating... now i began to start my new life with full of beautiful sunshine and world of forgiving, i not hate my 2nd ex anymore, shall i say thank you to him?

My dar try his best to love me, i can feel it... everything he lets me, never say 2nd word, i feel guilty, but i know that is the way he loves me, i know. why i said now my relationship is totally different and out of my mind? because he lets me realize, 'love is giving the best to each other; not touch each other to meet your need'! what need? guys know! my 1st and 2nd ex never gaves me sense of security, because they like to touch, i do not know why; now my dar wont do like that, and i believe him and trust him ^^ he giving me what i feel is best... he changes me

I cherish the time we together, because we do not know the future which is unpredictable... i blogging here is to remind myself, i got someone loves me and i love him, is enough, my life become maningful =)

Thank u my darling ^^ i love u =)

DAMAI Trip 4/9/2010

2010-09-05T19:09:00.040+08:00

4/9/2010, me, adeline, shu ying, calvyn, kang hong, ai yung, yan sue, joey and desmond go Damai play, perfect trip is was.. i impossible 4get it, perfect memorize. i appreciate the time wif u all, i very reluctantly wanna leave u all, i dun wan leave... T.T everytime when i tinking of u all, i cant control my tears drop out n jus c it down on my cheeks.. but holiday we still can gather rite? ^^ i love u all!!! muacckksss!!!

we gals really crazy xD

yo~~ xD

peace~~ xD where another 1?!

my cute cha bo ^^

me n tiong ^^

rest time bah!?

aik?!?!?!? by pose!? show his beautiful leg xD

yeah~~ so fun =)

when we gals go play, 2 guys (kang hong n calvyn) emo at the sand there ==
can try read the words? lol

haha tat time omost nn le i tink..

lol we play this xiao cha bo xD pondan lai de..

we making her 'bird' LOL

hahahaahhaah so funny xD im this photo taker at this time >.<
yeah~ we 4 gud sisters ^^

oh no!!! can sumbody go take a look wat happen?! sum1 emo gal wan.... ehem xD

tat em cha bo ah, walk alone ==

haha when we reach, there is damai puri, a beautiful place tat i heard, bt.. sayang we cant go, dunno wats wrong wif it

yeah reach.. Damai Puri(dp).. T.T we failed to go in..

my cigarette xD

after breakfast at kenyalang market before we start our journey

we having breakfast-fish moi at kenyalang market about 7am.. tat is adeline(xiao cha bo) xD

tiong =) we share a fish poi jus coz tat time we 2 din feel wan eat kok..

waiting 2 guys cam pick us.. at adeline's house there..

haha we preparing it b4 the car cum

haha me

we so early wake in the morning about 5.30am like tat go adeline's house to help ex:cut hotdogs, clean cup etc

so many makanan ringan lol

me n joey ^^

moon? sun? star? oh, bird? wat bird? xD

Miss Damai XD

pai cha bo xD

Miss Damai bah!!!

haha adeline crazy de =p

oi?! my leg prettiest or urs? ee~~~ urs~~ xD
actually tat time our questions is :" how to say pose a 1 leg front n 1 leg bek?!" which suggested by sum1 who r profession wif this xD

hahax

lol love u xD

4 malay gals xD tuala lai de ah xD after swim..

assalamalaikum~~
wahaikumusalam~~
raya cuming soon lol lol

(will update again the pictures, coz it may take a long time to upload it, im tired >.<)

Crazy with Korea songs

2010-09-02T20:54:00.002+08:00

here are some of the famous korea MV

Love ya-SS501

Time to Love-T-ara and supernova

oh!-girls' generation

wedding dress-taeyang

misery- maroon 5

2010-08-06T19:13:00.000+08:00

怎么会狠心伤害我-郑源

2010-07-26T21:35:00.001+08:00

nice song.. i cry when i heard this song, touch video =) luv it

FIFA World Cup 2010 =)

2010-06-25T17:20:00.002+08:00

*remember off the song below this page 1st ^^

The Reason-Hoobastank

2010-06-21T20:49:00.001+08:00

**nice lyric.. realize it..**

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is You [x3]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

I realize it...

2010-06-07T06:20:00.003+08:00

yerp, i realized it last month xD just dunno wanna how to post and say about my feeling.. well, what I realize? number! I remember I like the number is '7', actually not my actual favourite number. just influenced by someone == now I know that, my favourite number is 3, yeah, i found it back =) thank Q dar ^^ k, I honestly tell, yeah, in a relationship, about 1/2 year already.. from last year November bah?? I found back my true feeling, that is wat I want. forgive me I hide it 1/2 year, Im sorry, I got my own reason.. jus wan to make sure my feeling is correct.. i dun wan wrong again, let me regret. thats all what I wan say about mine
another, many happens right now! I know how to handle is grace from God, tankiuk God. coz some of people dunno how to go already. well, i have the way, the solution. haha really thanks the wise from God lol just feel all the things was changed about 270 degree, unbelievable, i dun wan say, if say, u shock too! haha feel very funny, lucky i wont believe what he said last year, i guess it long time le xD
and, thanks God he wont oppose my heart are God on 1st, priority on God.. he said he understand.. but now at US to further his study, he will cum bek when holiday.. within 1 n 1/2 years will finish study bah? =)

终极一家-混元无极

2010-06-01T11:49:00.001+08:00

nice song =) n nex vdeo is the movie, last episod.. nice, xD c how them play music instruments lol

NOBODY-Wonder Girls

2010-06-01T07:51:00.000+08:00

It's MV, must see!!!! funny xD i like it

sad..

2010-05-15T13:59:00.002+08:00

I very sad, because sumthing I scare is really happen.. is about church caregroup.. my dear leader din go church oredy few weeks.. actually I kw wat reason is.. in the church, maybe only few of ppls kw.. include pastor
I dunno wat happen on her, jus her emotional is low recently. can sumbody pray 4 her? every1 pray 4 her, plz? I need all of ur pray, coz i person pray = 1 power. I will understand, n I just hope she will not far apart from God, I kw its suffer, if far from God, I kw the feeling.. pray 4 her healthy, will oways pray(close with God, whatever happen)
jus wan say, mummy, no matter wat happen, we will understand, we will forgive oso.. most important is, we still love you! God nv giv up you, we ofcoz will nt give up mummy.. tat nite u asked me a question, i oredy felt weird..

守护甜心 pictures

2010-04-12T16:27:00.010+08:00

1 of the Guardian-Q's chair, Rima

Rima ^^

Rima's 守护甜心, cute? I most like de yeh xD

when Ikuto wanna protect his 'girl-Amucha' or doing a task..

1 of the Guardian, ex Queen chair, after that is J's chair

tat is primary sch gal's wearing, for guardian, like prefects gua, bt is protect whole world, more serious xD actually above the picture's person is a boy, his family tradisional

One of the Guardian, Joker

this is Utau, she is beautiful, Ikuto's sister, bt she crazy coz like her own bro ==

Joker's 守护甜心

小兰, 美琪, 小丝, 方块
she special gt 4 eggs, so is Joker, normally gt 1 only, depends on how strong them are

All of the eggs are Amucha's eggs, bt only the little grey colour is Ikuto's

1 of the Guardian-King's chair

ex J's chair, coz he older than them 1 year, primary 6

守护甜心しゅごキャラ

2010-04-12T14:34:00.002+08:00

it's a japanese animation, it's nice, i like it ^^
some of the songs video:

迷宫蝴蝶

Black Diamond

My Heartful Song(Hoshina Utau)

My Heartful Song (Ikuto & 亚梦)

bestzzzz frens 4eva~~~ ^^

2010-03-29T17:46:00.002+08:00

time to appreciate ur frens~~~ Adeline, my bestzzz fren~~~ ^^ cute leh~~ =p xiao cha bo lai de.. wakakaka

CNY 2010, oso her bday, so, we been invited to join her 17 bday, old luh~~ (dry cough 2 times) xp

smile~~~ xD

wah~~ boss xD

CNY 2009

*post this passage n pics jus wanna proof that frenship is very important.. ^^ bside ur bf/gf relationship, frenship oso most important in our life, gt it? c? gt a close fren, is very happy.. although only left few months we all will leave, mayb she go other's country I go other's country too.. So must APPRECIATE each other ooh.. ^^

--->>thanks to all my bestzzzz frens, we r bff rite??? (Adeline, Aaron, Ming Liang, Chung Chien, Dennis, Liat Hui, Ai Yong, Lee Chin, Lee Joo...)-school; thanks u all's support when I do any decision, u all r bside me when I feel down, depression, sad; having ur comfort, encourage, support, I feel very glad having all of u ^^

--->>>my outside's frens oso ^^ Rackson(ikan emas xD), Darren, Wei Long, Jessy, Yen, Yu Ern, Lenny, Kelvin Lai.. thanks u all's support n bside me anytime i nid ^^ Rackson, wondor why we called him ikan emas?? gold fish xD coz bo pian, he is really cute xD although oredy 21 yrs old, bt go outside many ppl thought he only 18 == xD

Appreciate ur frens ooh, coz we dunno wat will happen 2ml ^^

first love-Utara Hikaru

2010-03-25T21:41:00.001+08:00

>>>1st feeling a little like tat gua.. i love this song.. enjoy ^^

work memory at Sugarbun 2010

2010-03-23T20:32:00.008+08:00

i work at Sugarbun since last year 2009.. so many new stuff here.. all of white shirt are new stuff, just except me xD coz im only a part-timer, so x nid tshirt, coz i will leave there soon.. after SPM.. i will go my dreaming country.. go beyond my limited boundary.. so.. here are some photo wanna show tat im happy tat moment ^^ this is when 12/3-21/3 =) i 1st time feel tat '1 Malaysia' concept.. xD
most of them are bumiputeras n malays.. only me.. chinese xD bt i like them so much ^^

Shaylin ^^

my lunch xD jus simple lah haha

me n Shaylin

Farid, me and Shaylin

Farid n me =p

my beautiful n cute manager xD Kak Warti

gila Farid xp

me n Adison

haha so tired loh actually, tat is last day i work.. 21/3 (Sun)

coz nex day is start school day again..

so like them ^^

Amirul, Adison, Fatherley, David, Jes

Yo~~ xD

haha 007 xD jk jk

pose xD

Fatherley curi take me photo ><

Jes n me =)

c sumthing special?? dun u c Do Re Mi??? xD

Shaylin, me, Amirul

wau~~ xP

-->Kak Warti(manager), Jes(crew leader)

-->me, Rifany, Shaylin (cashier)

-->Amirul, Rasul (lobby)

-->Farid, Fatherley, David, Rony, Adison (Kitchen backsink n broasted)

thanks them all gav me very nice memory ^^ haha when holiday i still will go bek.. jus scare sum stuff leave again.. haiz.. like last time..

2005 6K reunion

2010-02-17T15:19:00.005+08:00

is me ^^
take this photo at Spring haha

at Li Cin's house around 11pm something

16/2/2010 Chinese New Year 3rd day, I was met with all my primary school's classmates at friend' house. 2pm met at Spring... I very enjoy it ^^

xD

xD me and Liat Hui ate ice-cream wakakaka sot de

my good sister ^^ (11 years' best friend)

xiao cha bo xP

Ah Lee, Agnes, Me and Hui

at Spring Sugarbun there xD

still gt another 2 guys opposite us haha

haha crazy de, me and Hui stole the 'Love' pillow wakakaka

at Alex's house

around 8pm something

*we all around 12am something just back home ==

Tears in my eyes...

2010-02-14T19:17:00.002+08:00

Tears because of love...

my eyes like this near half year

and so I looked around
and I saw you
I catched your eyes with mine
and I saw
I saw the same fear
the same sorrow
the same tears
the tears of fear
the tears of sorrow
the tears of love
and while I looked at you
and while my eyes were catching yours
I knew
we should suffer
and we should both suffer alone
with tears in our eyes
the same tears
the same sorrow
but not the same love

Sorry...

2010-02-14T19:08:00.000+08:00

I blur with my present situatiom.. a guy is chasing me, well, i admit he is a handsome guy, 21 years old, studying at Swinburne... Im sorry that I have no feeling.. really sorry..

For another guy 20 years old studying at Inti college, Im so sorry oso coz currently no feeling to all of guys.. I have my own reason and don't ask me I believe you can find other's girl better than me..

and another 21 years old's guy, oso my 4 years' frendship, i really dunno btw us nt only frenship, bt oso my chaser, I was shock when 14th Feb 12am (0000) I received a msg from him... I cant say I like, but just feel very happy with him, coz he is funny person n cutie guy xD

呐喊-陈家凯

2010-02-14T17:07:00.003+08:00

*touch video
*I like this song
*before u click start the video, turn off my music player 1st ^^

如果今天我不再想你
明天我不去回忆
那是因为我没了力气
如果昨天是一场游戏
离别是一首歌曲
那是叹息谱成的旋律

走跟你一直走到莫名的感伤
等等你一直等到凄美的绝望

寂寞在深夜排山倒海
你会不会再回来
眼泪让它流一个痛快
低吼的感慨一声狂飙的悲哀
沉默是心底最痛楚的呐喊

如果爱情是一种道理
我愿意循规蹈矩
贯彻我对你始终如一
如果我们之间生了病
就算是无药可医
也要挨到最后一口气

走跟你一直走到莫名的感伤
等等你一直等到凄美的绝望

寂寞在深夜排山倒海
你会不会再回来
眼泪让它流一个痛快
低吼的感慨一声狂飙的悲哀
沉默是心底最痛楚的呐喊
你给我的回忆太美满
最怕变成了信仰
离开是我唯一的方向
你早已不在你在也不会明白
再见是今生最痛楚的对白

Forgive and Forget

2010-02-08T19:58:00.003+08:00

Actually so many people especially my friends, close friends, normal friends, church brothers and sisters, some of them know that I got hating inside my heart.. so, what them do? them only can do giving me advice.. Hoping me can forgive the person I hate, can forget is totally perfect. But, can I? I waste my 1 week's time to think about this let me feel bothering's stupid problem! my only one principle is those who one betrayed me, lost keep thier promise let me stupid believe and trust, lie me.. I wont forgive, 'if forgive, is feel very sorry to me!'

I very struggle.. whether wan forgive or not.. so, I take my courage, to sent out a message about give me more time to forgive.. I sent to 7 people..

1. I felt most important person that must receive my 'give me time' message is my 2nd ex-bf. I know before we break he is really4 good to me.. I also know I love him that much, but that is BEFORE; because of he lost his promise, he hurted me.. so I starting building my hate.. Im really sorry what you had done and I hate you, my fault, not your fault, I too stupid.. I really3 hope you can give me time more and more.. I will gonna make calm of myself, manage myself.. step by step.. that's my ever most love's ex-bf ^^
2. my 1st bf; haiz, mention about him.. I will feel most3 hate! although I don't want reply him even a message (like my 2nd ex don't want reply me, the same), but that is because I hate so don't want reply, but I dunno how my 2nd ex think.. Although is like that, but I still take a most big courage sms to him (1st bf), told him the same, give me time to forgive.. and forget.. bacause he is a person that I most don't want see.. Well, although I hate you, but I still will manage myself to forgive you.. I admit, I will more love my 2nd ex compare to you.. just.. I will explain to you another suitable time.
3. not kind of friends, but misunderstand me that wanna stole bf from them -.- who want steal == maybe this kind of people I may forgive easier and forget easier, because I didn't feel any hurt from them. So, this kind of people, I lazy explain much.

FINALLY>>> I sent to 7 peoples, only 1 didn't reply me.. 5 of them said it's ok, nevermind, nothing bad..
1 my 1st boyfriend said, feel very touch that I said like that, I can feel that he is very happy of my few sentences of message. I let him know, I sent this message, didn't mean that I give him a chance, but is only forgive what he had done 4 years ago..
my 2nd ex didn't reply me, nvm, in my predicted, I didn't expected he reply me, and also don't want he reply

that's all what I want to say.. nothing much.. just all about forgive.. and forget..

HATE!!

2010-01-27T21:15:00.005+08:00

what is that word? it's 'HATE'; my heart's current's feeling and what I have, it's full, FULL

see?? HATE!! EVERYWHERE!! means?? many people I hate, not only 1, even who betrayed me, lost their promise

HATE with some blood, should know what the meaning! that's why I say my heart is black, my blood is black, I had change, 180 dgree change.. i know when, only I know..

you know the meaning? means, hate, transform to love. possible? at least FOR ME! IMPOSSIBLE!! I am what kind of person, no 1 know. even my closer friends

my life full of struggle, I know that is wrong, but I don't want to change it, I decide to wrong long-lasting, but that only MAYBE. I still waiting for a lot of people who EVER betrayed me, lost promise, hurt me etc, waiting for their apologize. I limit 1 week will receive apologize from all of them.. but.. I really disappointed at them, angry at them, I start to let go my hope, I give up. But then, last year 2009 almost finish, only 1 apologize to me through sms, but I already disappointed! all of us know, how deep you love the person, how deep you HATE the person too! yeah, I feel it, really feel.. so it's not so easy to forgive, because the person you ever deep of love but hurt you, say 'a' word without think, so.. I get a lot of hurt, carry a heart of hurt to live my life everyday; eat, sleep, do, everything not enough, not good! what I feel? can all of you feel? Cant. Because not on you! All of you enjoy your life where can feel it? it's hurt, sad, almost mad myself, almost Killed. You know the meaning. So, my heart not become dark red anymore, but black, dark and deep black, it's very black, because now I can be a most sinister's person, I don't care what them think, because if I care of them, waste only, them not appreciate.. failure... Although all things are over.. But I still cant forget it.. Cant forget what you've done for me..

What's life

2010-01-27T20:54:00.002+08:00

Life is full of challenges--meet it
Life even is a gift--accept it
Life is a sorrow--overcome it
Life is a tragedy--face it
Life is a mystery--unfold and solve it
Life is an opportunity--take it
Life is a promise--complete it
Life is a struggle--fight it
Life has goals--achieve it
Life is a LOVE--LOVE it
Life can be adventures--enjoy it
Life is a duty--perform it
Life is a game--play it
Life is most beautiful--praise it!!!

please APPRECIATE your present life; at least NOW what do we have!!

me and best frenzzz..

2010-01-27T18:39:00.003+08:00

primary school memorize

2010-01-27T18:02:00.004+08:00

i think is pri1-pri3 4gt le lah haha>>party
c d tcher so know is btw primary 1-3

primary 6 go gai2 haha

take photo with tat tcher wanna move away from our sch.. we miss her so much~

haha pri1-3 dunno xD

whole class primary 6k take photo..

haha think the time is really go that fast.. see all these pictures, I only primary school, primary 6 bah I think.. primary lower class and higher class all got

now?? haiz.. just think3... now already form5,, walao a~ really fast lah xD 2 tests already success pass, now waiting most3 scare's exam--SOM =s haha I must make effort to do it well.. ^^

haiz...

2010-01-13T18:34:00.002+08:00

Well, just school no a longer time, but I many things have to bother.. haiz.. I feel so unpatient le, I already blur and dunno what to do now!! My homework? too many.. it doesn't matter; tcher too serious? that is quite good for our class; but is my ex-bf.. x.x how I gonna to do leh?? now i so scare people call me lah o sms me, my heart like will drop

so I will oways din answer people's call if you are anonymous. now really busy plus so bother.. actually I try my best to refuse these things happen in my life, but I cant run away, I think I have to face it like take a hardship challenge is it? it's hard for me.. erm, still ok, coz some1 will accompany with me ^^ well, i will not spread too much my private feel xD anything, ask me ^^ I just wanna post these to let u kw nw my feeling is very unwel..

Love Sucks

2010-01-04T20:02:00.000+08:00

whispering sweet nothings, disagreeing, yet nodding in agreementhands clasped whenever together,a moment spent apart, text messages galore;
i like your laughteri like your smile,when i am with you,i have so much fun;
sending me on a whirlwind spin,sleep is for the weak, i tell myselfwishing to be next to youi am going crazy about you;
leaving me breathless with your touch,you got me forgetting to breathe,I can’t help but love you with all of me,because it’s only you who makes me smile;
it’s not supposed to be this hard,everything is said and done,all the sweet nothings have been whisperedand all disagreements have been agreed,with nothing left to savor,it’s time to call it quitsit’s time to agree “love sucks”,while we are still in love,maybe it’s about time we let romance in!

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Romance is the true identity of your love. It brings out your true self and helps you be a better lover, husband and partner. Romance is a celebration of the life you live as part of a couple. It springs naturally and originates from within your heart. It makes you do things that you possibly couldn’t have imagined to do otherwise. It shows you who you are and reminds you of the role you play in a relationship. Romance is not responsibility but it is caring about your responsibilities towards your lover and partner. Romance is the appreciation of two people who are celebrating the lucky coincidence that they found each other.

A new year 2010

2010-01-02T22:53:00.002+08:00

wah~~ new year cuming le yeh~~ yesterday oredy wanna write this passage to express my feeling.. bt no time for me, work everyday, tired, not because I so free ah, because I really lack money use =.=

2010 cuming, I form 5 le, so fast~~ SPM =s 17 years od walao~ old loh xD Well, actually in this short year of 2009, I oredy plan so many what I wan to do include my schedule in this 2010. I have go straight my way, I will not 'U-turn' again, I will not bent go other's road see again, just straight walk the way I wanna go.. so, don't kacao me hahaha

so, maybe I will forget about what had happened in 2009-bad year, unfortunate year.. maybe I will not forget it, see how my mood loh. Shall forgive de, I forgive le, although I expert them who offence me will apologize to me among 1 month.. bt let me waited half year, so I become hate, angry, I no feeling anymore, jus feel the feeling oredy freeze early, so disappointed to all of them. conclusion, 3 person only 2 apologize to me, other 1 no use de, not a man, pondan -.-
1 apologize to me in front of me, let me a little bit touch n already forgave; another 1 apologize to me through sms, bt i really angry him, jus because he is the special 1 for me BEFORE, so i scolded him x.x I don't think I dare to scold him, bt tat day I really scold him, haiz.. another 1 leh, I most4 angry!!!!! c?? all are guys.. -.-///

how deep u love, how deep u HATE!!!

2009-12-05T12:49:00.003+08:00

I never understand this meaning before, until now I really get understand it and examine myself my heart what of this meaning-to me! well, began I don't believe this sentence that my friends had told me before; now realize this sentence already grew into my deepest heart early before..

To: you

I hate u, I don't want see you again, now i do another decision to hide from u just don't want see your shit face, otherwise my stomach will off later!!! I always remember how u hurt me before, I won't forget it; i will remember it long of my this life, how u hurt me, what the words u said to me, how u do for me, even how u think of me!!!!! don't ask me why I will like you before, why I will together with u, because that time Im totally BLIND!!!!!!!!!!! brainless!!! I even don't know what u use to when u did it for me, said it for me.. well, my heart so easy cheated again, u all stupid idiot!! all are same, worster!!! u can always remember 'I HATE YOU!!!!'

I can bet this week sure many stupid guys will ask me who I mean to, heh, no need I answer, but the person will know who I mean to!! don't bother me!!!!!!!!

2012

2009-11-19T20:59:00.002+08:00

nice movie. if u undertstand this movie, then u willl feel nice and interest it; instead, if u not undertstand this movie during playing even a few, then u sure will feel boring
this is the movie's trailer

Sorry Sorry-Super Junior

2009-11-16T22:35:00.000+08:00

this dance is super nice, I so like it xD

Un-break My Heart--Toni Braxton

2009-11-08T20:41:00.003+08:00

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tearsI cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart

Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkindAnd life is so cruel without you here beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry this tears
I cried so many, many nights
Un-break my

Un-break my heart oh baby
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on...

*I very like this song, meaningful, touchful.. this something like my 1st relationship, it's hurt me heavily..

“omg”

2009-11-08T16:09:00.001+08:00

With the advent of cell phones, texting, and online chat, an abbreviated form of language has emerged. Texters and chatters regularly communicate with shortcuts like ‘lol’ (laugh out loud) or ‘idk’ ( I don’t know).
For the most part, these abbreviations are harmless. One popular shortcut, however, is truly offensive to believers in Jesus—‘omg’. The most common meaning given to this abbreviation is the expression ‘Oh, my God’.
Should we be concerned by its use? Or are we making something out of nothing? Consider this: Although the Bible doesn’t legalistically regulate every single word that comes out of our mouths, it does plainly state that we are not to use God’s name in a way that regards it as trivial (Exodus 20:7). Even though blurting out ‘Oh, my God’ or texting and e-mailing ‘omg’ have become socially acceptable, they’re still examples of using God’s name wrongly.
It boils down to an issue of respect. To refer to the God of the universe in this manner, even as an expression of shock or surprise, is flippant and dishonoring. It treats “the name above all other names” (Phi 2:9) as irrelevant, as if it carries little weight or special meaning. To be fair, some may not intend to use ‘omg’ in this way. They may believe that it is an innocent expression that-for them-means “Oh, my goodness”. Given how it’s most widely used and interpreted, however, it would be wise to use another abbreviation.
God’s name is to be revered, not to be misused or treated as meaningless. Whenever we refer to God, may we reflect the spirit of the psalmist who wrote, ‘Honor the Lord for the glory of His name. Worship the Lord in the splendor of His holiness’ (Ps 29:2)

Ps: So, remember don’t use that word oh... even you type or blurt it, sin will add on you oh… May God bless you

On Shoulders of Giants

2009-10-19T16:30:00.002+08:00

* I am very touched by this passage, look it carefully, and think it, because every are facing this

Giants hold a special place in our lore-both historical and literary. From the real giant Goliath to the fictional giant of Jack and the Beanstalk fame, we are fascinated by these larger-than-life characters.

Sometimes we use the word giant to honor ordinary-size people who have done extraordinary things. One example is the 17th-century physicist Sir Isaac Newton. A committed Christian, he credited his success to other “giants” who had gone before. “If I have seen a little further, it is by standing on the shoulders of giants.” He said. Indeed, Newton became a giant on whose shoulders later scientists stood — even as they used his observations in the conquest of space flight.

When God commanded Joshua to lead the Israelites into the Promises Land, Joshua certainly had a giant’s shoulders to stand on. He had watched Moses’ leadership for 40 years, and now he would put what he had learned into action.

Joshua had another advantage — his walk with God sustained his life’s mission. Therefore, he had both Moses’ example and God’s promised presence as he led Israel.

Looking for help as you face the future? Look for a giant to follow. And never underestimate the importance of your walk with God.

*A good example is someone who knows the way, goes the way, and shows the way.

May God bless you all who saw this passage, thanks for your see this passage
May God walk with you, be with you as:
[As I was with Moses, so I will be with you.] Joshua 1:5

Deep waters, dark nights

2009-10-19T15:56:00.000+08:00

In the film The Perfect Storm, a captain and crew head out for what they hope will be an uneventful fishing expedition. In their quest for a bountiful catch, they motor far past their normal fishing location. There they find great success, but as they turn for home they encounter the horrifying combination of two powerful weather fronts and a hurricane. The crew struggles as they attempt to cut though deep waters, a dark night, pounding waves, and shrieking winds. Ultimately, the fierce weather overwhelms them.

As the disciples made their way across the Sea of Galilee to Bethsaida, they too found themselves in a ferocious storm-experiencing turbulent, deep waters and a dark night. They struggled to sail through pounding waves and shrieking winds. Though they could not see Jesus, Jesus could see them (Mark 6:48). He saw their exhaustion, desperation, and even their lack of progress. Not only did He see them, He came to them in an unexpected and powerful way, walking on the water (Mark 6:48-49). When Jesus walked on the way, He gave them a glimpse of the unlimited power of God. Though they couldn’t speak, Jesus spoke to them: “Don’t be afraid … Take courage! I am here!” (Mk 6:50). His words and presence gave them courage.

If you’re experiencing deep waters and dark nights, remember 3 things:
(1) When you can’t see Jesus, Jesus sees you. He sees your hard work, exhaustion, sorrow, fear, and your lack of progress, and He cares deeply for you
(2) When you can’t come to Jesus, Jesus comes to you-in unexpected and powerful ways. His coming is not always to deliver us, but to remind us that He’s still in control and will not let us be overwhelmed
(3) When we can’t speak to Jesus, Jesus speaks to us. He speaks powerful words of assurance: ‘I am here!’

Disappinted-you-everyone

2009-10-14T20:34:00.000+08:00

What happen? What the ' WORLD' is? Is a FAILURE!!! Weird why I say like that?
Well, actually this not 1 day already, I never thoungh my friend and another friend will quarrel, that is not weird right? But them are quite best's friend, I hate this, because I ever encounter it before when I just started Form 3 not long time if non-mistaken, just only because a guy only! I don't think I will like him, instead he is my chaser; my best friends misunderstanded me and she draw a big FULLSTOP between our friendship. What all the things was going on?? What our 6 years best friend make for? What are the friendship relationship? WHY??? Unstable friendship? Distrust? What else? I'm so many ? mark, who can help me? Yeah of course God can, is it somebody here with me so that God can through the person help me? NOBODY actually!!! You see, am I right? the 'WORLD' is super failure!!! I'm disappointed all of you, no matter you wrong or not, just because this world is like that, I see break
I'm in the middle 2 of them, my friends, how come? I didn't do something wrong, just because I'm her friend so she is my enemy too? Well, I know, my friend's temperament is quite not good, she treat me so good, but don't know she treat everyone different; as me... I treat everyone different too, if you are manner person, I naturally will good to you; if you are a mannerless person, you better don't find me don't talk to me not I pride but I want to prevent I will angry!
Anyway, I don't think I will expect anything anymore, in the world... Disappointed.. for all the human being in the world, whether you Christian or not.. Because some Christian I know, can do themselve what them want to do, live in non-christian society, hurt people..Whether who you are, all the same...
Never know what will happen in the next second, minute, hour...
Like 'Letter from Hell'---
Don't bother me...

Letter from HELL

2009-10-12T19:23:00.001+08:00

This is a nice video, "Letter from HELL". Who visit my blog, MUST see it, to understand, to clear that how JESUS important are!!!!! Wish you all once a day can let JESUS go into your heart, let He be your eternal Savior, He's GREAT, it's true... May God bless you all...

Hurt-Christina Aguilera

2009-10-08T20:40:00.000+08:00

Songwriters: Aguilera, Christina; Perry, Linda; Ronson, Mark;

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today, ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms, I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Oh, it's dangerousIt's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you

*How nice this song, meaningful.. something like mine.. touchful

Pictures that suit my feeling right now!!!

2009-09-15T19:10:00.000+08:00

My feeling now is--- It's true " I'm crying these tears because.... I Miss You ", count every night..

" If I could give you one thing in life, I would... "

" When You are with me, I feel perfect ", my true feeling, I still reluctantly, but because of you...

Is it nice? Im gonna using this earings xD

this is my heart always is wrapping, never open yet.. see 2 hearts inside? Im thinking who the another heart will gonna be with me in the future...

what this keys mean? hmm... the story quite long de oh.. erm.. Im a locker, who is the key? U should guess it if u are intelligent person, gud luck in ur guessing ;-)

now, my heart like lock into a box that with lockful and tight, why??? Because I felt I had controlled, Im human, but someone/somepeople can control me in love relationship!!! I know, I wont so stupid anymore, I wont say anything le!! It's true, just my dear/best friends will know

A Lover's Complaint

2009-08-15T11:01:00.000+08:00

FROM off a hill whose concave womb reworded
A plaintful story from a sistering vale,
My spirits to attend this double voice accorded,
And down I laid to list the sad-tuned tale;
Ere long espied a fickle maid full pale,
Tearing of papers, breaking rings a-twain,
Storming her world with sorrow's wind and rain.

Upon her head a platted hive of straw,
Which fortified her visage from the sun,
Whereon the thought might think sometime it saw
The carcass of beauty spent and done:
Time had not scythed all that youth begun,
Nor youth all quit; but, spite of heaven's fell rage,
Some beauty peep'd through lattice of sear'd age.

Oft did she heave her napkin to her eyne,
Which on it had conceited characters,
Laundering the silken figures in the brine
That season'd woe had pelleted in tears,
And often reading what contents it bears;
As often shrieking undistinguish'd woe,
In clamours of all size, both high and low.

Sometimes her levell'd eyes their carriage ride,
As they did battery to the spheres intend;
Sometime diverted their poor balls are tied
To the orbed earth; sometimes they do extend
Their view right on; anon their gazes lend
To every place at once, and, nowhere fix'd,
The mind and sight distractedly commix'd.

Her hair, nor loose nor tied in formal plat,
Proclaim'd in her a careless hand of pride
For some, untuck'd, descended her sheaved hat,
Hanging her pale and pined cheek beside;
Some in her threaden fillet still did bide,
And true to bondage would not break from thence,
Though slackly braided in loose negligence.

A thousand favours from a maund she drew
Of amber, crystal, and of beaded jet,
Which one by one she in a river threw,
Upon whose weeping margent she was set;
Like usury, applying wet to wet,
Or monarch's hands that let not bounty fall
Where want cries some, but where excess begs all.

Of folded schedules had she many a one,
Which she perused, sigh'd, tore, and gave the flood;
Crack'd many a ring of posied gold and bone
Bidding them find their sepulchres in mud;
Found yet moe letters sadly penn'd in blood,
With sleided silk feat and affectedly
Enswathed, and seal'd to curious secrecy.

These often bathed she in her fluxive eyes,
And often kiss'd, and often 'gan to tear:
Cried 'O false blood, thou register of lies,
What unapproved witness dost thou bear!
Ink would have seem'd more black and damned here!'
This said, in top of rage the lines she rents,
Big discontent so breaking their contents.

A reverend man that grazed his cattle nigh--
Sometime a blusterer, that the ruffle knew
Of court, of city, and had let go by
The swiftest hours, observed as they flew--
Towards this afflicted fancy fastly drew,
And, privileged by age, desires to know
In brief the grounds and motives of her woe.

So slides he down upon his grained bat,
And comely-distant sits he by her side;
When he again desires her, being sat,
Her grievance with his hearing to divide:
If that from him there may be aught applied
Which may her suffering ecstasy assuage,
'Tis promised in the charity of age.

'Father,' she says, 'though in me you behold
The injury of many a blasting hour,
Let it not tell your judgment
I am old;Not age, but sorrow, over me hath power:
I might as yet have been a spreading flower,Fresh to myself,
If I had self-appliedLove to myself and to no love beside.

'But, woe is me! too early I attended
A youthful suit--it was to gain my grace--
Of one by nature's outwards so commended,
That maidens' eyes stuck over all his face:
Love lack'd a dwelling, and made him her place;
And when in his fair parts she did abide,
She was new lodged and newly deified.

'His browny locks did hang in crooked curls;
And every light occasion of the wind
Upon his lips their silken parcels hurls.
What's sweet to do, to do will aptly find:
Each eye that saw him did enchant the mind,
For on his visage was in little drawn
What largeness thinks in Paradise was sawn.

'Small show of man was yet upon his chin;
His phoenix down began but to appear
Like unshorn velvet on that termless skin
Whose bare out-bragg'd the web it seem'd to wear:
Yet show'd his visage by that cost more dear;
And nice affections wavering stood in doubt
If best were as it was, or best without.

'His qualities were beauteous as his form,
For maiden-tongued he was, and thereof free;
Yet, if men moved him, was he such a storm
As oft 'twixt May and April is to see,
When winds breathe sweet, untidy though they be.
His rudeness so with his authorized youth
Did livery falseness in a pride of truth.

'Well could he ride, and often men would say'
That horse his mettle from his rider takes:
Proud of subjection, noble by the sway,
What rounds, what bounds, what course, what stophe makes!'
And controversy hence a question takes,
Whether the horse by him became his deed,
Or he his manage by the well-doing steed.

'But quickly on this side the verdict went:
His real habitude gave life and grace
To appertainings and to ornament,
Accomplish'd in himself, not in his case:
All aids, themselves made fairer by their place,
Came for additions; yet their purposed trim
Pieced not his grace, but were all graced by him.

'So on the tip of his subduing tongue
All kinds of arguments and question deep,
All replication prompt, and reason strong,
For his advantage still did wake and sleep:
To make the weeper laugh, the laugher weep,
He had the dialect and different skill,
Catching all passions in his craft of will:

'That he did in the general bosom reign
Of young, of old; and sexes both enchanted,
To dwell with him in thoughts, or to remain
In personal duty, following where he haunted:
Consents bewitch'd, ere he desire, have granted;
And dialogued for him what he would say,
Ask'd their own wills, and made their wills obey.

'Many there were that did his picture get,
To serve their eyes, and in it put their mind;
Like fools that in th' imagination set
The goodly objects which abroad they find
Of lands and mansions, theirs in thought assign'd;
And labouring in moe pleasures to bestow them
Than the true gouty landlord which doth owe them:

'So many have, that never touch'd his hand,
Sweetly supposed them mistress of his heart.
My woeful self, that did in freedom stand,
And was my own fee-simple, not in part,
What with his art in youth, and youth in art,
Threw my affections in his charmed power,
Reserved the stalk and gave him all my flower.

'Yet did I not, as some my equals did,
Demand of him, nor being desired yielded;
Finding myself in honour so forbid,
With safest distance I mine honour shielded:
Experience for me many bulwarks builded
Of proofs new-bleeding, which remain'd the foil
Of this false jewel, and his amorous spoil.

'But, ah, who ever shunn'd by precedent
The destined ill she must herself assay?
Or forced examples, 'gainst her own content,
To put the by-past perils in her way?
Counsel may stop awhile what will not stay;
For when we rage, advice is often seen
By blunting us to make our wits more keen.

'Nor gives it satisfaction to our blood,
That we must curb it upon others' proof;
To be forbod the sweets that seem so good,
For fear of harms that preach in our behoof.
O appetite, from judgment stand aloof!
The one a palate hath that needs will taste,
Though Reason weep, and cry, 'It is thy last.''

For further I could say 'This man's untrue,'
And knew the patterns of his foul beguiling;
Heard where his plants in others' orchards grew,
Saw how deceits were gilded in his smiling;
Knew vows were ever brokers to defiling;
Thought characters and words merely but art,
And bastards of his foul adulterate heart.

'And long upon these terms I held my city,
Till thus he gan besiege me: 'Gentle maid,
Have of my suffering youth some feeling pity,
And be not of my holy vows afraid:
That's to ye sworn to none was ever said;
For feasts of love I have been call'd unto,
Till now did ne'er invite, nor never woo.

''All my offences that abroad you see
Are errors of the blood, none of the mind;
Love made them not: with acture they may be,
Where neither party is nor true nor kind:
They sought their shame that so their shame did find;
And so much less of shame in me remains,
By how much of me their reproach contains.

''Among the many that mine eyes have seen,
Not one whose flame my heart so much as warm'd,
Or my affection put to the smallest teen,
Or any of my leisures ever charm'd:
Harm have I done to them, but ne'er was harm'd;
Kept hearts in liveries, but mine own was free,
And reign'd, commanding in his monarchy.

''Look here, what tributes wounded fancies sent me,
Of paled pearls and rubies red as blood;
Figuring that they their passions likewise lent me
Of grief and blushes, aptly understood
In bloodless white and the encrimson'd mood;
Effects of terror and dear modesty,
Encamp'd in hearts, but fighting outwardly.

''And, lo, behold these talents of their hair,
With twisted metal amorously impleach'd,
I have received from many a several fair,
Their kind acceptance weepingly beseech'd,
With the annexions of fair gems enrich'd,
And deep-brain'd sonnets that did amplify
Each stone's dear nature, worth, and quality.

''The diamond,--why, 'twas beautiful and hard,
Whereto his invised properties did tend;
The deep-green emerald, in whose fresh regard
Weak sights their sickly radiance do amend;
The heaven-hued sapphire and the opal blend
With objects manifold: each several stone,
With wit well blazon'd, smiled or made some moan.

''Lo, all these trophies of affections hot,
Of pensived and subdued desires the tender,
Nature hath charged me that I hoard them not,
But yield them up where I myself must render,
That is, to you, my origin and ender;
For these, of force, must your oblations be,
Since I their altar, you enpatron me.

''O, then, advance of yours that phraseless hand,
Whose white weighs down the airy scale of praise;
Take all these similes to your own command,
Hallow'd with sighs that burning lungs did raise;
What me your minister, for you obeys,
Works under you; and to your audit comes
Their distract parcels in combined sums.

''Lo, this device was sent me from a nun,
Or sister sanctified, of holiest note;
Which late her noble suit in court did shun,
Whose rarest havings made the blossoms dote;
For she was sought by spirits of richest coat,
But kept cold distance, and did thence remove,
To spend her living in eternal love.

''But, O my sweet, what labour is't to leave
The thing we have not, mastering what not strives,
Playing the place which did no form receive,
Playing patient sports in unconstrained gyves?
She that her fame so to herself contrives,
The scars of battle 'scapeth by the flight,
And makes her absence valiant, not her might.

''O, pardon me, in that my boast is true:
The accident which brought me to her eye
Upon the moment did her force subdue,
And now she would the caged cloister fly:
Religious love put out Religion's eye:
Not to be tempted, would she be immured,
And now, to tempt, all liberty procured.

''How mighty then you are, O, hear me tell!
The broken bosoms that to me belong
Have emptied all their fountains in my well,
And mine I pour your ocean all among:
I strong o'er them, and you o'er me being strong,
Must for your victory us all congest,
As compound love to physic your cold breast.

''My parts had power to charm a sacred nun,
Who, disciplined, ay, dieted in grace,
Believed her eyes when they to assail begun,
All vows and consecrations giving place:
O most potential love! vow, bond, nor space,
In thee hath neither sting, knot, nor confine,
For thou art all, and all things else are thine.

''When thou impressest, what are precepts worth
Of stale example? When thou wilt inflame,
How coldly those impediments stand forth
Of wealth, of filial fear, law, kindred, fame!
Love's arms are peace, 'gainst rule, 'gainst sense,'gainst shame,
And sweetens, in the suffering pangs it bears,
The aloes of all forces, shocks, and fears.

''Now all these hearts that do on mine depend,
Feeling it break, with bleeding groans they pine;
And supplicant their sighs to you extend,
To leave the battery that you make 'gainst mine,
Lending soft audience to my sweet design,
And credent soul to that strong-bonded oath
That shall prefer and undertake my troth.

''This said, his watery eyes he did dismount,
Whose sights till then were levell'd on my face;
Each cheek a river running from a fount
With brinish current downward flow'd apace:
O, how the channel to the stream gave grace!
Who glazed with crystal gate the glowing roses
That flame through water which their hue encloses.

'O father, what a hell of witchcraft lies
In the small orb of one particular tear!
But with the inundation of the eyes
What rocky heart to water will not wear?
What breast so cold that is not warmed here?
O cleft effect! cold modesty, hot wrath,
Both fire from hence and chill extincture hath.

'For, lo, his passion, but an art of craft,
Even there resolved my reason into tears;
There my white stole of chastity I daff'd,
Shook off my sober guards and civil fears;
Appear to him, as he to me appears,
All melting; though our drops this difference bore,
His poison'd me, and mine did him restore.

'In him a plenitude of subtle matter,
Applied to cautels, all strange forms receives,
Of burning blushes, or of weeping water,
Or swooning paleness; and he takes and leaves,
In either's aptness, as it best deceives,
To blush at speeches rank to weep at woes,
Or to turn white and swoon at tragic shows.

'That not a heart which in his level came
Could 'scape the hail of his all-hurting aim,
Showing fair nature is both kind and tame;
And, veil'd in them, did win whom he would maim:
Against the thing he sought he would exclaim;
When he most burn'd in heart-wish'd luxury,
He preach'd pure maid, and praised cold chastity.

'Thus merely with the garment of a Grace
The naked and concealed fiend he cover'd;
That th' unexperient gave the tempter place,
Which like a cherubin above them hover'd.
Who, young and simple, would not be so lover'd?
Ay me! I fell; and yet do question make
What I should do again for such a sake.

'O, that infected moisture of his eye,
O, that false fire which in his cheek so glow'd,
O, that forced thunder from his heart did fly,
O, that sad breath his spongy lungs bestow'd,
O, all that borrow'd motion seeming owed,
Would yet again betray the fore-betray'd,
And new pervert a reconciled maid!'

William Shakespeare

Love is my sin, and thy dear virtue hate

2009-08-15T10:48:00.000+08:00

Love is my sin, and thy dear virtue hate,
Hate of my sin, grounded on sinful loving,
O, but with mine, compare thou thine own state,
And thou shalt find it merits not reproving,
Or if it do, not from those lips of thine
That have profaned their scarlet ornaments
And sealed false bonds of love as oft as mine,
Robbed others' beds' revenues of their rents.
Be it lawful I love thee as thou lov'st those
Whom thine eyes woo as mine importune thee.
Root pity in thy heart, that when it grows
Thy pity may deserve to pitied be.
If thou dost seek to have what thou dost hide,
By self-example mayst thou be denied!

William Shakespeare

Thanks a lot

2009-08-12T20:52:00.000+08:00

Thanks a lot.. u too yah ^^ of course I can let it down lah, or always keeping meh? keeping more longer more sad nia... I am open de leh XD u leh u leh? ok bah???

I cry finally

2009-08-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

this is what I was thought as before
After 24/6/09 (Wednesday) that night, since 25/6/09 at 12AM start, I am starting my new life, it’s sad, too sad, and since that day I never cry anymore, until today, now!!! I thought how strong I can be, how strong I am… but… I am wrong guessed… I am weaker, how weak I am, I cry finally, not because other things, but is my private thing. Inside my heart, still leaving that ‘pain’, something hurt such pain, as two sharp knives with very sharp’s vertex still leaving there through over my ‘poor’ heart, why I cry? I am thinking quite long time, can say almost whole afternoon, luckily I can don’t think it during exam weeks, otherwise I don’t think I have this kind of patient to calm down, I am depressed my emotion long time actually, so after exam weeks is a relax week next. How I should do now? I of course every time definitely will go seek for God, but seen no one reply me, I am currently in helplessly now, so sympathy… Maybe actually, I never happy, but I have to pretend, who understand? God, yes, He understands, but only Him. How I know me never happy since that day? Because I am myself, well, not to pretend, I happy in front you all, school, friends, family, church… but after I back home, I go back my room, my face started not that happy already. When can I leave this suffering life? I even ever thought that if some a day I encounter some of problem to loss all of my memories, that will be so great I thought. Or else I don’t stay here. Problem is I am still studying Form 4, where to go? Haiz, actually this matter should not be happen, from the beginning. Now we are even in cold warring, no talking, no cares, no play, no concern… not like before, how nice… but now… I am a little bit cant patient to stay there, well, I have my another plan maybe will good to me, and also the other person, now I may not to tell everyone, include my caregroup unit leader, leaders, anyone… but when the time is up, I will do it myself, but before I do it, I will let my unit leader to know, and I must pass up my ‘resign / take leave’ letter from leadership team, it’s a currently plan for now’s situation!!! I will observe next situation, then just follow my plan… actually, I don’t like my plan, and I hope all the situation will become better as before, that plan is for when really no other way, when really force me go ‘the end’ way!!! I am a human, too, also a girl, a weak girl……

Accidentally saw a cute white HoRs3 XD

2009-08-11T18:38:00.000+08:00

Last Friday I was went BM tuition at my school’s one of teacher’s house, I went with my friends. When finish tuition, I and my friend was walking to a shop to waiting for her dad to come to pick us, but it’s a funny thing that we make, we go wrong way, right way is should be turn left, but we go straight way, go to a small kampong, my friend was felt something wrong that we were go wrong way, haha of course I get shock at the time, of course, if your friend said GO WRONG WAY, I am curiosity what your respond right now!!! XD Well, when my friend notice that we go wrong way, suddenly saw a white cute horse was hold by a small Malay boy, she was pretty funny shouted at me said a horse XD truth, we not ever saw real horse since young until now, except at Singapore zoo, but that horse not so nice to look, because too thin, so sympathy… but now, we are really go in front ‘him’, go touch him, sayang him, so cute, pretty cute…

Innocent-Avril Lavigne

2009-08-11T18:33:00.000+08:00

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

This innocence is brilliant, It Makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it,
Don't you let it pass you by
[Chorus]

My currently mood and feeling

2009-08-08T22:05:00.000+08:00

Well, what I want to share is about my currently mood and feeling. For mood, actually is a little bit of nervous, because of some private thing(s) not able to let you know XD ask me loh, I consider want let you know or not, if you are the lucky person who I trust to, then I will tell you what happen in my ‘nervous’ life, but is a bad thing(s) actually. I can’t always online, because this streamyx line so stupid slow and sometime it don’t want I on XD, so IF want ask me, don’t use msn or e-mail etc… I guess who knew my blog’s person have my handphone number right? Can ask me anytime you want but is through sms. For the person luckily meet my blog and I don’t know you, you can leave a comment there or ask my @ from me (IF). Currently mood not only nervous, but also when sometime happy, I can happy until I crazy with my ‘Crazy Team 7 peoples’ XP; when I sad, no one is with me when I alone, except 2, if at school, never got anyone know Im sad, because I can hide it. But only 2 with me, 1st—my great Father, God, 2nd—my best friend, but is a guy, so not easy to share my some of thing(s), anyway, thanks; when angry, no one can talk to me actually, everyone scare kena ‘bom’ XD but I try to change my behavior.
For feeling, these day got lame anonymous find me, don’t want tell me where my number got from, want be friend with me, I hate this kind of stupid, because I don’t know where them got my number, unless someone betrayed me? Began, why I want change my number? Because I hate anonymous find me, again, them don’t report their name, don’t tell me who gave them number, ok, I will not reply, not answer the calls. Besides, XD someone chase me, long time le but I don’t know, he is a studying in University’s student, my best friend’s brother... shock me loh actually XD haha I don’t want share too much lah, anyway, Im considering, I don’t want 3rd boyfriend le lah, too many ah XD sorry I still studying secondary, I want study 1st, I want get good result, I want go in front…XD
During free time, Im planning my future where to study, what course to study will good for me, so, I will do revision follow my time table, my plan... Well, Im a plan person, so I wont let my life be worst, I wont waste God gave me life of purposeful, He is almighty God, He is great, He help me so many in my life that what I cant do well. I let down so many ‘obstacles’ that let me cant come in front of Jesus in my life, I chose God’s way, I believe God will gives me better life, better than as before ‘poor’ life… definitely, and obviously, in bible, I forgot which book which chapter which verse le, Matt I think, says He gives his son / daughter better things, I trust, I believe

youth camp 31/8-1/9/08

2009-05-24T18:20:00.000+08:00

mini sport 21/3/08

2009-05-24T18:11:00.000+08:00

my feeling

2009-05-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

Now these few months… I very stress, stress about what? I stress about my family economic actually, because school many payment have to pay, how I should going to do now? I very bothering, I know someone is very kindly willing to help me, but, I’m sorry, I still hard to tell, because.. Its really hard for me, I dun like people say me I’m a greedy of money, I hate money, but let me tell the truth, we cant live without money, although I hate of money, but I have to confess that we need money to live, of course we got God can live also, but I meaning is on our physical, we cant live without money.. I hate it…
I hope I can go find a job to fill full my empty envelope, who can help me?? I not expect that everyone can help me, at least that can pray for me, my family’s economic really unstable now.. I hate the person who owe my dad’s money many years ago, I tell u (owe my dad’s money), you are not a human, you are the greedy of money’s bad animal!!! You not comfortable to be a human!! Someday, someday when I grow, someday when I become intelligent, someday I not a small girl anymore, I will find you animal got back my DEBT!!! I’m my dad’s daughter, I also you greedy animal’s DEBTOR!!!!!!! Don’t try challenge me, I hate u!! Someday I really will go find the person who owe my dad’s money.. I’m serious, I almost going to be crazy because you these greedy animal! I very disappointed of these pupils, why? Because, 1 of his is my relative, 1 is my dad’s close friend, a ‘fake’ Christian, 1 is my dad before I not yet born go new guinea work’s boss, 1 is a fake, greedy, stupid’s company, what ‘sunshine empires’, fake company, greedy company, this company someday I will destroy it myself!!!!! I hate this stupid fake company!!!! Them all are bully poor and weak’s family… I just leave it to God, leave those pupils to God…

Im sorry

2009-05-08T20:44:00.000+08:00

Friday.. Afternoon.. Haiz.. I did wrong thing already, I so regret.. Im sorry to u.. sorry of my selfishness, I just tink of myself, then didnt tink of u.. Im so sorry.. although its was too late to apologize, but I still want to apologize.. I very failure.. I will pay attention next time, watever I tired o wat, I will very willingly to do something for u my 'fren'.. Can u forgive me tis stupid? I not expect u can forgive me.. Im really sorry

A hurt(sad) day ='(

2009-04-15T20:01:00.000+08:00

haiz.. thought was a good thing for me, will let me happy's thing, until forever.. Who know.. something I most scare really happen 2nd time in my life~ but this is most hurt most pain for me, compare with 1st time.. Although just allowed me 3 days sad, maybe I cant do, I need is time, I need at least half year until 1 year, between lah... Why want like this??? WHY?? I really dunno how many tears fell down from my eyes already.. anyway, I sad, I hurt, I pain.. I dunno wanna how to respond..

But I believe God will open way to me.. Let me happy, let me think open.. everything will let me.. Just worried about something.. N although I hope my wish can be fulfill, but I never force, if dun wan nevermind, really nevermind.. I dun wan force.. Just want u can understand what I mean..

During waiting comfirmation, I prepare myself 1st, let me can be a better girl, matured girl..and others.. If this is a God's blessings, maybe I already change, I not a naughty girl anymore.. I promised that I will change myself, love God more, dun wan the things which are belong to world, dun listen world's song, sometime only lah..

I got many nice memorial in my mind.. when I sad, when I think of that person.. Miss.. I just want remember that all things, remember back all the nice memorial.. Maybe I will happy more.. But still will sad a bit, coz of.. miss, wanna sms, ..dun like, n limit oso, mit, limit, anyway, limit limit limit!!! Hate the world, if I were a non-living thing, maybe will more nice, no need sad anymore.. But, I cant complain, because God sent me live on this world, He got his plan for me, for my better future.. I have to fulfill what he had asked... I willing to wait, if pain in short time, can change our forever, I WILL..

I very expect this day will coming, our hapiness... I WAIT =)